Krista Lauren

It’s amazing how much you can love someone you’ve never seen.

Before getting pregnant, I was terrified to carry a child. It seemed so horrible, and childbirth even worse. Parts of pregnancy have been really hard. I am a mix of emotions sometimes, and there is pain involved. But I am absolutely in love with our lil babe. I think of Baby all the time, and even when the kicks hurt, I pray to keep feeling them for reassurance. They’re little love taps, after all!

I was never one of those girls who planned out everything about getting married and having kids. I felt frightened about having children, if anything. I still don’t know what it’s like to be a mother to a baby I can hold in my arms, but I will say, my heart has grown a few sizes and I am just so thrilled and honored to be our baby’s momma. Pregnancy has been a small rollercoaster, but overall, it has been such a surprising joy for me. I feel Baby kicking as I write this and want to cry. We have the sweetest little guy in there, and I feel so blessed. I am scared about the future when I think about it sometimes, but I’m also much more at peace than I ever thought was possible. I need to keep remembering to thank God for all of this, because I just am so grateful.