One reason I think my writing sometimes speaks to people is that I feel so deeply. I sometimes joke that my feelings are as strong as Taylor Swift’s, but I think creative people are often just wired like this.
When I posted my story about forgiveness the other day, my friend Kristie said something that resonated with me. She said that I know how to put words to feelings. This has actually been something that has scared me in the past because I do think I know how to put pen to paper and explain the way I feel about things. I’m not extraordinary at a lot of things, but I definitely know all about feelings. On top of that, I’m not so scared about what people think anymore that I have trouble posting my intimate thoughts.
So, why is this a scary combination? Because I’m afraid of what God has in store for me. Writing and openness is a gift, but it’s terrifying because I don’t want to go through the hardships it takes to relate to others. Now that I’ve been through some of the scary stuff — like depression and chronic illness — I love that I can share my stories to help others, but I want it to end there. I enjoy writing about love and exciting twentysomething things and want to do that instead of writing about the things that hurt. I don’t want to ever have to write about how heartbreaking a deployment is again. I don’t want to deal with illness or loss anymore, and I don’t want to ever hurt deep down to my core ever again.
I know life isn’t perfect and that we’re meant to hurt sometimes in this world. Some people have it harder than others, and often times life is absolutely not fair. There are ups and downs, and nobody in the world has a completely easy and constantly fulfilling life. We all struggle, whether it’s with something catastrophic or minor stresses. As long as you’re alive pain is inevitable, but the way we deal with it and use it to lift others up is what really matters. The message I really want to get across in this is that life and love is worth the pain we have to deal with. You always have someone who loves you (And if you don’t feel that way, please message me and I will absolutely be there for each and every one of you!), and you matter in this world.
Today’s lesson: Your pain and heartache can be used for good. Sometimes you’ll never know why something bad happens to you, but other times you can look back and realize the purpose was to help you grow. Having a chronic illness has made me more empathetic, kind, and compassionate than I ever was before. Dealing with depression has given me new insight to how others might be hurting and makes me want to write about my past and my feelings to help others feel less alone — and to show that even the most heartbreaking of things can be overcome. I still don’t have everything all figured out, but I am trying to use my pain and heartache to connect with others and wrap my readers in a gentle, virtual hug. You may not know why you are struggling today, but please always keep fighting. You never know who you might be impacting with your life and what kind of incredible plans God has for your future.
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This is why we write. I love this sentence, “As long as you’re alive pain is inevitable, but the way we deal with it and use it to lift others up is what really matters.” Every word of this post was crafted by one who knows pain, and the fact that we both fight depression is not an accident we were brought together here. Our talent and longing to craft words for an illness that destroys rather then creates makes this world a better place. Thank you WordPress for creating a place like this for us to come to offer healing to our hurting world.
Krista, I can see from your gravatar that you are an attractive lady, but I can read your words, and I know your heart and mind are even more so. May my Father use the law of attraction to pull us all in closer to Him, for He created all beauty, and the thought of what the beauty will look like, and the experience of unadulterated love in the after-life boggles my mind. We can rest secure there will be no misunderstanding or evil thoughts toward the inexpressible joy of being with Him for eternity.
Until then I am grateful for posts like this.
Grace and peace my friend.
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Thank you so much for reading and writing such a thoughtful comment. WordPress really is amazing and has connected me to some great people — including you! I hope you have a wonderful day, and thanks again for your beautiful words. They are incredibly comforting!
You are very welcome my friend.
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